how do you judge a relationship that you were not in? you cant, its like trying to tell someone how truly beautiful the niagra falls is without having ever been there. yet why is it that everywhere i go, i hear people judging other people’s relationship. who was wrong, who was right. and its all based on what they know of the relationship. what they have heard, what they saw or what people told them. but if you stop for a second and think about it, how much do you really know about this relationship that you are judging? were you part of this relationship, or just someone who stood at the sideline and watched the people in this relationship?

its funny how whenever it involves matters of the heart or the word “love”, we cant seem to apply the common logic that we use in every other aspect of life. there is no law, there are no rules.

often when a couple break up, the people around them gather to discuss who was at fault. who was the villian and who was the victim. (please do keep in mind that im obviously talking about two perfectly fine human being who has a brain thats filled with functioning braincells, and obviously relationships that dont make it to the headlines of your local newspaper.)

RELATIONSHIP ONE

tom and mary were the perfect couple. they were so loving and their families get along. everyone around them approves of them. it was perfect. and one day, they broke up. because tom found out that mary cheated on him. and everyone starts to talk and discuss. logically, mary cheated so that makes her the villian. and tom, the victim. its a no-brainer.

but thats only the surface of the relationship, the part that all of those who are NOT actually in the relationship sees. what about the parts beneath the surface? dont they count as well? so why was this relationship judged only by the superficial knowledge you have and not what it was really made of?

tom and mary met when they were young, 14? thats young. tom fell in love with 14yrs old mary and forgot that one day, she’ll grow up. and when people grow up, they learn new things, they see a bigger world, they want to do greater things and experience what they have never experienced before. will tom love her even when she starts to grow up? no. he wants her to remain as the girl he fell in love with. a young innocent teenager who knew nothing much but school, him and family. and because she loved him, she tries. and everybody knows, that there will be a day when you’ll just be so tired of pretending to be someone that you’re not just so that the person you love wont be hurt. there will be times when you would just want to be yourself. and so does mary.

if you had to judge this relationship now, what would it be? was she the villian and him the victim? or the other way around. hard to decided isnt it? because now that you look deeper into their relationship, you realized you cant find the point where either of them decided to hurt this relationship knowingly. all you can find, is how both of them loved this relationship in their own ways. but you cant stop a person from growing up or force someone to love a person who’s different from the one they fell in love with. is there really right and wrong in relationships? yes and no. does that answer your question? *wink.

yours truly,

calista faye

*dont fall in love with me, i’ll break your heart..

i was just thinking back to the days of coccolatte earlier on, and realised how much i miss it. HAHA!! it was awesome and just thinking about it brings back the warm feelings from before.

p.s ( ivan, your mixes are still awesome!! *teehee)

that actually reminds me that i should really go dig up those old ass pictures in my old hard drive. *wink. cause im not too sure where i left them. but i’ll find it for sure babe. (:

i remember how shy you were and so innocent. HAHA!! im sorry ivan, i just have to. i seriously cant help it but since im writing a post right now, i might as well relate the moment here.. *teehee

After finishing up at the club, you packed your stuff and waited for me outside while i finish up my stuff and tying all the loose ends in the club. And poor you, that night alex and i had to discuss something so i took so long and you had to wait by the riverside for me. LOL. i still remember i was complaining so much that im soooooo hungry, so you took me to upper thompson for meeeeepoookkkk!! *yummmy. and the uncle kept forgetting to put chilli in mine. ): than you had to eat mine, so i could order another one. HAHAHAHA!! (yeah, you are a sweetheart, though i never actually said it..)

That was probably the first time we actually REALLY talked since i started at the club. (aye, its not easy managing coccolatte okay!!) !@#$%^&* always have to plan so many things and events. HAHA. and plus, you’re always so quiet. you leave like right after you do your last set. *grrrrrrrr.

Butttttttt, yeah. so that night, you actually sent me home and we sat under my block and chilled.

AND AND AND, all of a sudden..

ivan : can i ask you a question?

me : yeah..haha

ivan : can i kiss you? *looks at the empty space somewhere in between us..

me : aye, dont ever do that okay? dont ever ask a girl if you can kiss her. just kiss her and if she doesnt want it, she’ll back away. if she kisses you back, it’ll be romantic. HAHAHAHAH

ivan : oh, really? i thought i better ask you cause you look like you will slap people

me : HAHA!! next time you try again okay?

ivan : means?

me : *still thinking how silly and cute you are.. (INNOCENT BOY)

ivan : *leans forward and kisses me.

i didnt back off. (: cause you were so sweet and innocent. HAHAHAH!! makes you cute.

oh man, good memories.

we HAVE alot to catch up on yes? *grinnnnnnn

yours truly,

calista faye

you left without saying goodbye,

leaving behind all the promises we’ve made.

i allowed myself to be stupid for a night,

just to let it all out, all the pain.

it hurts to know that you’re no longer here,

and the memories are all thats left.

i will keep them safe in my heart,

for now i know, its time to part.

my dear, we’ll meet again someday,

so watch over me and i shall pray.

you’ll always be a part of me,

forever, forever, for eternity.

yours truly,

calista faye

* tasha me and lizzy

for all the times they made me smile when i could not find a reason to.. (:

i love you bitches. <3

and so this will last for a very long time..

yours truly,

calista faye

HARU – kimbumsoo

watch the mtv.

*I’m going to smile
and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh,
so you don’t see me cry.
I’m going to let you go in style.

and even if it kills me-

im still gonna say goodbye..

GO ON BOY – inlovewiththisversion (:

yours truly,

calista faye