DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT, enroll yourself into this private institution. If you are considering private institutions for your education, dont even bother with MDIS.

MDIS have proven themselves to be just another one of those private institutions which does not have a proper management system. They’d inform you that your class has been cancelled ONE HOUR before class begins. If you think thats just a minor little problem, wait till you hear this.

On the 25th of FEBUARY 2008, MDIS mass smsed their students informing them that class begins at 9am, later in the morning. THIS MSG WAS SENT TO THE STUDENTS at 2.45am. yes. your eyes are fine. you saw the time correctly. The management gave no explanation as to why that happened and merely brushed the matter aside. ‘ we have alot of work to do.. ‘ was their BEST excuse. (and it isn’t even valid)

Apart from the messed up system. MDIS apparently gives FALSE informations to parents of various students. Claiming that a parent of a student, has made a complain against another student for the negative influence. This has happened to a number of different students studying there currently. When confronted, the MDIS management, DENIED promptly.

What values can MDIS teach their students if the school itself seem to have ZERO values?

MDIS has proven to be a total disappointment.

I am known to have a very VERY VERY good temper. i dont flare up easily. (unless of course you happened to be some guy who’s dating me) i am normally. cool about most things. BUT i must say that this gross and ugly thing seriously pissed me off last night.

NOTE TO DONOVAN :

- im so sorry cause it was your birthday after all. and i really should have kept my cool. but if you look at it my way. i hope you’d understand how pissed i was. whichever the case, sorry your party ended this way. ):

NOTE TO GROSSSSS FATTT THINGG :

- you are so fucking lucky your father apologised for you over the phone. in future. PLEASE dont try to pick a fight with someone you know nuts about. its stupid. really. im pretty sure you another one of those sad creatures god realllly hated. thats the reason why he didnt give you any brains nor beauty. but dont be too hard on yourself. at least you have a dad who’d clean up your shit. HA! to think i was being nice. pulling a freaking stool for you to sit cause you were squatting by the table. AND you claimed i fucking threw a chair at you. seriously. PLEASE use whatever remnants of your disfunctional braincells to differenciate kindness and being a bitch. if i wanted to be a bitch about it. you would have been squatting at the foot of that table like a pathetic little rat. so get your facts right before pointing your fat ugly yucky UNPOLISHED fingers at me. i do have a limit. and you definately crossed it. btw, i REALLY REALLY have better things to look at. my eyes would be blinded if i stole a second glance at you willingly. OMG. you are like. TWO of me. not hot, at all. gross. take a minute to ponder..

NOTE TO SELF :

- ALL guys are lying when they claim to love you very much. NEVER trust another guy EVER unless i want to have my heart brokened. (: *must remember

NOTE TO ESTHER :

- thanks for coming down though it was so random and in the wee hours of the morning. (: and always helping me when people like that try to pick a fight out of nothing at all.

NOTE TO THOSE WHOEVERS WHO HATE ME :

- i dont NEED you to love me. really. i love myself. ALOT. so there’s really no need for you to force yourself to like me if you reallllly think im a bitch. BUT. at the very least. have some guts to hate me in my face. i dont need fake smiles. dont hide your hatred. cause i wont bother hiding mine. GOT IT? goooooood. but before confronting me. i’ll have to state down a few basic rules..

* please do think hard what about me do you not like and what is it you want to pick on me about. DONT come rambling incoherently to me in tragic english. that. i’d just laugh it off and think you have a microscopic brain. seriously. i mean it. i’d laugh in your face. so unless you want to kick yourself in the face. DONT confront me unprepared. im not to mess with when i hit my limit.

last but not least. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONOVAN. (:

i need rest. drank and cried till i look totally unfit for my shoot today. have no clue how the fuck am i gonna go through this day. urgh. head hurts.my facial muscles are cramped. omg. if i still had one last breath. i’d say im sorry im sorry i’ve not learnt how to love again. i selfishly only wanted to be loved. but i know deep down. its not possible to only recieve and not return.

im so random. naimah’s birthdya last year. miss you guys. *SMILES.

DONT YOU JUST LOVE ME HUH NAIMAH. HAHAHAHA.

love is so simple, its complicated. you seem to know so much about it, yet understand nothing. it may bring smiles, but mostly tears. when would it be safe to love with your heart? once you allow someone to unlock your heart, with the keys in their hands, you risk having your heart locked and stolen. you may never get it back.

you’d aften love someone who has given their heart to somebody else.
you’d often be the one trying to piece them back together again.
yet no matter how hard you try. you never seem to be comparable to the one who broke their hearts.

i’ve heard a friend telling me this once.

LOVE IS LIKE WAR
EASY TO START, HARD TO STOP

isnt that just so true.

if i could choose who i wanted i love. maybe i wouldnt have chosen you. i trusted you with my heart. you seem to have delibrately smashed it on the floor. a millions shattered pieces i’ve had to slowly piece it back together. yet before i could finish fixing the shattered heart, you’d trip over it and break it into even TEEEENNNNIER bits.

thanks alot. a whole fucking lot.

i really loved once. but now i no longer would.

you pushed me up just so i’d fall once you let go
i’ve fallen. i hope you’re happy.

i wont regret you though. you were part of me. will always be. a memory i cannot seem to erase.
its like the delete button in my brain went missing.

was loving me that hard. or was it me who couldnt stop loving you too much.
it’ll all end soon.

if i am lost for a day try to find me
but if i dont come back than i wont look behind me
all of the things that i thought were so easy
just gets harder and harder each day

december’s the darkest
june is the light
and this emprty bedroom wont make anything right
and out on the landing
a friend i forgot to send home
who waits up for me all through the night

calender girl
who’s in love with the world
stay alive

i dreamt i was dying
like i so often do
but when i awoke
i was sure it was true
i ran to window
threw my head to the sky
and said whoever is up there
please dont let me die

well i cant live forever
i cant always breathe
one day i’ll be sand on a beach
by the sea
the pages keep turning
i’ll mark off each page with a cross
and i’ll laugh about all that we’ve lost