A NIGHT DOWNTOWN

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bobbi, melissa, yours truly and caitlin =D

so i have not partied at all since i hopped in the plane from singapore to toronto. and sweet ass melissa decided that it was time to show me the wild side of toronto.

to the brunny we went. four crazy girls just out for some fun. and it was a blast!! bobbi was swarmed with guys who consistently kept trying to pick her up. and melissa and i just kept heading to the bar for drinks.

none of us was even closed to being intoxicated but.. it was SO MUCH FUCKING FUN. =D and and and i miss the girls already. oh wells. school is starting so..

all in all. i had a fantabulous time!! =D

we partied till 2 and headed home.. bobbi and melissa made us suppppper!! yummmmmy!!

AND THEY WOKE ME UP AT 10 ON A SUNDAY MORNING FOR A BABY SHOWER ALL THE WAY AT bobbi’s PLACE.

*sheeeeeesh..

it was so much fun though we had to eat sushit. haha. oh wells.

yours truly,

calistafaye

PAINFULLY MASKED

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you dont see her tears because they are hidden behind her smiles..

There is so much i wish i could say.

i boarded a plane full of confidence, knowing that this it. This is the one flight i know im going to remember for the rest of my life. I was not sad or afraid that im alone. because i was not. i brought along with me, the support of my family. their love, their faith and their well-wishes.

only to find out that i was wrong.

maybe whatever i do will never be good enough. it pains me to know that in your eyes, im not even worthy of a chance to defend myself. no. you were so sure i was whatever he made me out to be. i would ever say a thing about my grandma. when i myself was so mad when someone else spoke ill of her. and all of you knew it. why didnt you guys ever think about what i have been doing these past few months.

at least i have the support of one person. and i really appreciate it. because i think if it was not for him. i would have broken apart.

im not crying because im a victim.

i cry because im hurt that my family stood on the other side of the river.

yours truly,

calistafaye

SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH

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the song that sounds so familiar

as i laze around in my new apartment so far away..

i noticed how the time has passed us by and for a tiny moment, i looked back at the memories i know i’ll be treasuring for the rest of life..

and after this little moment, i’ll be back to where i am. reality.


yours truly,

calistafaye

A TASTE OF MY EMPTY APARTMENT.

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i know. im such a lovable person. *awwwwww =D

okay. so my apartment is seriously ALMOST ready. and im so looking forward for school to start so i wouldnt be rotting alone. (yes. kill me. im such a loser here. HAHA)

anyway. the weather seems to be cooling off. *phew thank god. alrighty.

been reading a book which says, how to be single. HAHA.

no. it doesnt really mean i want to be single forever.

just until i meet the right guy.

who loves me. yay. and loves me. and loves me. DID I MENTION THAT THE GUY MUST LOVE ME?!! *frantic screaming

okay. im done with my post. and let me end it with another picture.

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this are my lovelies. yes. they listen to me talk and rant.

HAHA

yours truly,

calistafaye.

TEMPERATURE IS RISING

im running a fever. i hate fevers. fevers are dumb. and stupid. and should be eliminated from this planet. it should not even exist. omg. *grumbles

on a slightly happier note. my apartment seems nicer already and though i am still lacking in alot of stuff. it seems almost livable already.

=D

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i miss my appppendix. ):

your truly,

calistafaye

ALMOST SETTLED.

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after all the farewell parties.

im finally almost settled down in toronto and ready to have a welcome party.

sadly. there’s nobody here that could throw one for me. *sniffffs.

oh well.

im ALMOST done with my apartment. at least done with the setting up of internet and television and phone as far as i know. as for the furniture. its not complete yet.

gah. anyways. im heading out to walmart to get some stuff.

will post more later.

yours truly,

calistafaye.

FAR AWAY FROM HOME

no. this is not going to be a depressing post.

i just want to title it this way for the sake of it and it is a fact that im far (well, it IS 24hrs away from effing singapore) away from home.

=D

i have been getting things settled with regards to my new apartment. went to the brick and got my bed. *beams and a reallllllly awesome couch which im already so in love with. and and the air-con unit.

sorted out my monthly expenses and signed up for my skype. (im so totally in love with skype too. =D) and i have been skyping with my singapore sweethearts every night.

i miss you you and you. =D

you know who you are. i shall post up the pictures from my last night in singapore once im settled down in my new apartment. which should be by the end of this week. WOOHOOOOO!!

i love you baby. =D

yours truly,

calistafaye

where it all begins..

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it took alot to get us where we are..

its all the little things that makes me realise how much you mean to me.

and all the times you make me melt and tickle me within.

there cant be more to love than this.

i love you baby. =D

A WOLF IN SHEEP’S CLOTHING.

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sabrina leow, girlfriend dearest and yours truly.

(when it was all good and your lies was still a pretty painted picture..)

sabrina leow. before its too late,  please snap out of it. you are immature and living in self-denial. infact. i could recommend you some pretty great doctors. *BEAMS. (: you SERIOUSLY need treatment. (seriously).

if you made a mistake and just simply admitted it. things might have turned out SO MUCH BETTER. yet you chose to deny facts that are so clearly placed before you. nobody was mad at you (at first). even if they were. it was only because you have not changed one bit. and it was disappointment that they felt. im pretty sure those present at that moment held no grudge nor anger. it was just disappointment. i can tell that they cared. i can see it in their eyes. and im telling you that you have just pushed all of these people further away by doing what you have done. they obviously took you as a friend. they wanted you to learn. because if you meant nothing to them. they wouldnt feel hurt.

stop all these little childish mind games before everyone who truly cares are gone.

dont simply blame someone else for anything that happenes because you did it to yourself. you saw a pithole and decided it was such a cool thing to walk right into it.

be real and others will return the favour.

think about it.

i guess this has been one hell of a week and everyone just wants to erase it from their memories.

a wolf in sheep’s clothing is STILL a wolf.

you present character and mentality disgust me. and i seriously just want to say..

S C R E W      Y O U

Y O U      L Y I N G     B I T C H.

there. now i feel SO MUCH better. *GRINNNNNN.

*dont ever expect me to sugar candy coat the words i want to say to you. because im just the way i am. if you cant take me being this blunt by nature. than just go away. because i dont need you to be my friend.

i rather have no friends than a hypocritical friend. if you dont plan on being real than jolly well just fucking stay away from me. (:

yours truly,

calistafaye

THE BOAT QUAY TALES *edited.

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so a few nights back i blogged about a crazy bitch and a stupid bitch.

today i shall blog about the same people.

haha.

but in a totally different light.

guess sometimes. first impressions may not be the best. but if you give people a second chance to show you who they really are. you might just be surprised.

(:

doristoh the crazy sunwukong. and winnie the dumbBitch.

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guess sometimes. things are just not OH-SO-SIMPLE.

we will find out.. wont we?

*btw. this picture no longer gives me nightmares.(:

yours truly,

calistafaye