* i’ll smile cause im nothing like you..

How many times must i type a post about people leaving comments on my website, WITHOUT a name.

If you have something to say, go ahead, say it. BUT please, leave a name with your “helpful” comment. or do you need me to give you a name? you can say whatever you like about me. because i know who i am, and those who love me for me, knows. thats good enough.

did you think im going to feel sad just because you think i look like a monkey or a camel? nah. guess what? even if i look like a monkey or a baboon, i have people who love me and care for me. people who will be there for me when this monkey falls on her ass. parents who care and love me enough to name me.

furthermore, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. everyone is beautiful in some way or another. because if you depend on just your outside, know that you will lose it come 20 – 30 years down the road. and it will be your inside that keeps you beautiful. telling me that you think im ugly wont really affect me. and you should stop judging people just by how they look. because it only goes on to show how ugly you really are.

*true beauty lies not only on the outside, its the inside that really counts.

yours truly,

calista faye

If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I’d like to do
Is to save every day ’til eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I’d save every day like a treasure and then
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do once you find them
I’ve looked around enough to know
That you’re the one I want to go through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do once you find them
I’ve looked around enough to know
That you’re the one I want to go through time with

*a broken heart never heals until someone comes along with glitter sticks and glue..

While surfing around my facebook account earlier on, i realised that more than 50% of my friends have very depressing, heart broken status. let me just say that im not implying at any point of my post that this is in any way illegal.. (just in case i get flamed for this reason.) OR they just have this status that shouts, im lonely and i feel depressed because im ugly and no one loves me. yes. im not even kidding.

The fortunate ones would have a whole bunch of concerned comments left by friends telling them to be strong and everything is going to be just fine. There are also unfortunate people who keeps changing their facebook status just so someone would finally notice their thoughts and comment on it (in other words, there are the ones that nobody gives a shit about).

So what exactly is this whole heart broken depressed business? Simple, just in case if you dont already know. A heart break occurs when you decided to give that awesomely cute and charming guy by the disco bar your heart hoping that he shall protect it the way you have been doing and put it in a safety deposit box. What you didnt know was that he collects hearts as a hobby. Yes, he was not entirely honest when he said his favourite thing to do was cuddle and have sex. He was waiting for the right moment to tell you that he has a hobby that was dangerous. The day you find out about this “hobby” of his, would technically be the start of a heart break.

Your heart is like a fragile, beautiful sculpture made of glass. And it doesnt come with an instruction manual on how to care for it. If i were to try and picture hearts being sold in a store..

once brokened, considered tossed.

you must be stupid if you thought the person who broke it was going to buy it. See, i’ve met so many people who agree that time heals ALL wounds. i personally dont think it does. I believe that with time, the pain numbs you and you just dont feel anything anymore. The hardest part in a heartbreak is the processing of picking up the shattered pieces and trying to put it back together. With every piece you touch, memories would fill your mind and you will be reminded of the moments in your life, and wished you had the power to erase them.

broken hearts dont heal until someone comes along with glitter sticks and glue

yours truly,

calista faye

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
The risk that I’m takin’
I’m never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

*and everything seems so unreal..

Everything that night seemed so unreal. It all happened so fast and though she was happy, she was not sure if it was real. If it was not just another dream of hers.. He looked so unsure, uncertain of what he just said.

” yes, i want to go out with you..”

his words were shaky, like he didnt know what he was saying. Maybe he didnt want to hurt her, maybe he was being nice or maybe, just maybe, he really did like her.

She wished she knew whats really in his heart..

Suddenly, she felt fear. It was a fear that was unexplainable, almost like a little girl who feared the darkness.

” im scared..”

She was afraid that he would hurt her, or break her heart. She didnt want to go through the pain and torture all over again.. She guarded her heart well, until now.

Did she feel brave enough to grant him the key to her locked heart?

and so she wonders..

yours truly,

calista faye